I find it so crazy that so many people in my life are more interested if I’m falling in love or hooking up with guys in Australia than all the cool shit I’m doing. It just amazes me that people that know me so well worry about something as silly as me not trying to date anyone for long periods of time. Even if I’m interested in people, it’s so hard to get anything started because I run so much. I live in Virginia or Pennsylvania, but right now I live in Australia. I don’t want to spend my free weeks going back to places I already know just to see someone. I want to get out and explore and see as much as I can. I don’t plan on slowing down any time soon.
That is rather conflicting with this weird idea of what a “perfect” relationship is that everyone seems to want. I would be totally okay with making long distance things work or having someone to adventure with every once and a while. People just think that once you get into a relationship that you should be spending all kinds of time together and start doing “adult” things like living together and being engaged and junk. I couldn’t imagine how miserable I would be if being with someone that I loved met giving up so much of what I want to do. I want someone that will recognize that maybe sometimes they won’t be able to see me for months because I’m off doing whatever. Just because I am not right next to someone doesn’t mean I don’t love them. Once I let someone in this heart of mine, it does not matter if I see them everyday or once a year or if they are with me or across the world, they mean the world to me (friend wise or relationship wise). That explains why I’m not just hooking up on my adventures either.
I just don’t seem to fit into anyone’s idea of what they are looking for in a girl right now and I haven’t found anyone that seems like they could put up with me. That’s all fine to me because I am doing amazing things and loving life. All the rest will figure itself out.
Maybe one day I’ll find someone to run with me.