So, I’m writing this from my boyfriend’s basement as we get ready to go from normal couple to being in a long distance relationship. For the next few months, it will only be a distance of three hours. That could change to either being only two hours or maybe all the way up to eight hours. I know there will be at least one two weekish period of me being in Brazil, a trip to a music festival, and who knows where else I decide to adventure.
I’m scared and he’s getting nervous as much as he just wants to joke about it. I thought about writing this a long time ago when my sister had to reassure me that I am not crazy, but I’ve put it off until now. I am here to remind all of you that no matter what you think or feel that you are never too “crazy” for a lack of a better word to be in a relationship.
I know I have felt like that forever and I still do some days, but I think what keep perpetuating that idea was having unsupportive partners. Being jealous, being scared, being nervous, etc. in a relationship is so normal. I had to make myself realize this when I felt threaten by my boyfriend hanging out with a girl we are both friends with. She’s wonderful and I love her, but one day my brain said you should be nervous about their friendship. Why? Who Knows, but it did.
Where this part of my relationship become very different from any other before was that when I told him about what I was feeling he made sure to reassure me and to continuous make me feel better about the situation. That’s the key to success, as DJ Khaled would say. It made me sit down and think about all the things that he has put up with in the short ten months that we’ve been together.
Don’t ever feel like you don’t deserve a relationship or love, but make sure you take a look at the people giving it to you. If you suffer from a mental illness or if you don’t, the people around you should always be supportive and open to listening about what could make your relationships stronger whether it’s romantic relationships or friendships. Look for people that fall into that category and you’ll stop feeling so crazy.