Sometimes you do something thinking it will be everything you need, but it ends up setting you back. If you are starting a company, be prepared for the decisions you make for your personal life to impede on how you are running your business. For me, it was a decision to visit my friends and family back in Pennsylvania. In my mind, it was going to be a week of reconnecting, rest, and relaxation that I needed and I would come back to LA more eager than before.
It was an amazing trip home, but it zapped all my energy on wanting to move forward. It made me question living a plane ride away from the people that love me the most and whether LA was truly the place for me and chasing my dreams. It took me a solid week and change to get my feet back under me. I still haven’t shaken the feeling of LA not being the right place for me, but I have shaken the feeling that if it isn’t that work I do out here won’t mean anything.
People move. Companies move, but if you are just waiting for a move and standing still until that moment that is when you made a mistake. I can’t say I’ll leave LA. It’s a rough time right now, which will always make me want to be closer to people I care about, but who knows. I still have 8 months on a lease and as short as that may be in the grand scheme, if I keep moving then who knows how I’ll feel when they are up.
All I know is that I want to start this company and I have a to-do list to check off. Who knows where life will take me or if Justus Tickets will thrive or die off, but I know that I’ll regret standing still more than anything else one day. It’s really difficult to keep yourself accountable. It’s a one-woman team over here (well, technically) and for me, it’s always easier to let myself down than to let others down. So, if you’re in this boat, if you feel like you’re standing still, then find someone or something to keep you accountable. It may just be you on your team, but get a mentor, a friend, an advisor, anything to keep you accountable.
You can always share your goals with me. I know this journey of being an entrepreneur can feel lonely and daunting, but you have so many people on this journey with you. Don’t be afraid to reach out.
Real Friends – Composure
Listen to the whole album, honestly
Ariana Grande –God Is A Woman
Childish Gambino – Summertime Pack
Alessia Cara – A Little More
Mac Miller – Self Care
It’s officially summer and I am getting ready to take a much-needed trip to the east coast. This is the music getting me through the week.
Peter Cottontale – Forever Always
Ariana Grande – The Light Is Coming
Lizzo – Boys
Real Friends – From the Outside
Panic! At the Disco – Pray for the Wicked
State Champs – Living Proof
Jara – Something Else
The Carters – Apeshit
Entering into something completely new can be intimidating (honestly, horrifying at times) and very daunting. I know, like myself, a lot of first-time entrepreneurs are coming into this without a background in business and without anyone directly connected to them to turn to for advice. You do as much as you can and take educated shots in the dark. You’ll see some pan out into progress forward and somethings you’ll put a lot of work into to have nothing come of it. That’s the way it works out. The biggest thing that has been helping me keep pushing forward was one simple phrase from one of my professors:
“Don’t quit before the miracle happens.”
I had a big setback about a month ago when I thought a company that would be the best fit for accomplishing a Friends & Family round didn’t pan out well. They did everything perfectly and were absolutely wonderful and I spent days on building out documents they needed from me, but at the end of the day things didn’t work out. It really threw me off my game for awhile because I had reached out to a lot of people during the process only to have to turn around and tell them I appreciated their support, but the plan wasn’t going to happen as I had shared with them.
It took me a little while before I got back into it and I’m glad I did. I attended an event and was able to make a great connection and was accepted into the Bixel Exchange program. I was set up with an advisor that I’ll start working with in July to build a roadmap to keep moving Justus Tickets forward. I am excited to start taking fully calculated steps with support behind me. I got as far as I could on my own and I still plan on working just as hard despite having someone else behind me.
The reason I always turn back to that quote is that I know that at the end of the day that nothing pans out from this work I’ll be able to look back on everything I learned and be happy that I took chances. Maybe one day that miracle will be the decision to walk away from Justus Tickets or maybe it will be that things click. Only time will tell, but I’m glad I continue to take every step forward I can.
Oh man, I get to go home in three weeks and I’m in a very weird mindstate and my music choices have been all over the place lately. Here are some of the things getting me through.
Marlon Williams – Marlon Williams
You should also listen to his latest album, Make Way For Love.
Caleb Trask – Across the Water
My latest LA find.
Quinn XCII – The Story of Us
I finally listened to the whole album after loving any song I’d randomly hear.
There’s also been a lot of “Kids See Ghosts” and “Ye,” but here I am. Lazy and not wanting to add more photos. What do you have playing this week?
It sure has been a minute since I last posted about how I’m doing not just my business and what music I’m into. You might remember that I had said I was moving soon in the last update and I did! It was the hardest moving experience I’ve ever had and I’ve moved a good many times. The house had just been renovated and things weren’t entirely as they should be. The washer and dryer hookups weren’t correct, we had a pretty major gas leak, had a washer/dryer combo delivered that didn’t work, and the list goes on. It seems like pretty much everything is settled though and I love the space. It’s a better neighborhood for Luna and a short walk to the metro so I don’t have to drive to work.
After moving in, my living situation got a little shaken up so it’s little, sweet Luna and I on our own. It’s been a little difficult with rent and everything, but I’m making it work. Right after that is when my classes at Zero Base One started so it’s been hard to settle into a routine. The last two weeks that’s what I’ve been doing. I’m working on getting back into a daily yoga routine, working out, spending better time with Luna, and eating better. I legit hate cooking 90 percent of the time so it’s hard to not want to just be lazy and eat Oodles of Noodles for every meal, but there’s a light at the end of the tunnel.
The best way to sum up the state I’ve been in is being off-balance. Usually, this would be the beginning of a downward spiral for me, but I’ve done really well of staying positive and keeping myself focused on things that need to be done. Work has been rough, especially on my days when I don’t want to get out of bed. It’s been a lot more than a 9-5 some days after they had to lay some people off. As you can see in my How Do I Entrepreneur posts, I’ve still found time to keep pushing Justus Tickets forward.
Right now, my mantra is “just keep going.” It may not be pretty, but I’ve been doing just that. I hope if any of you are in this unbalanced place as well that you can find things to keep you grounded and moving forward. I always have an ear to listen if you need it.