A Look at July So Far

My dad & me

My sunflowers finally bloomed.
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Luna’s 5th birthday

An update on me as a human.

It sure has been a minute since I last posted about how I’m doing not just my business and what music I’m into. You might remember that I had said I was moving soon in the last update and I did! It was the hardest moving experience I’ve ever had and I’ve moved a good many times. The house had just been renovated and things weren’t entirely as they should be. The washer and dryer hookups weren’t correct, we had a pretty major gas leak, had a washer/dryer combo delivered that didn’t work, and the list goes on. It seems like pretty much everything is settled though and I love the space. It’s a better neighborhood for Luna and a short walk to the metro so I don’t have to drive to work.

After moving in, my living situation got a little shaken up so it’s little, sweet Luna and I on our own. It’s been a little difficult with rent and everything, but I’m making it work. Right after that is when my classes at Zero Base One started so it’s been hard to settle into a routine. The last two weeks that’s what I’ve been doing. I’m working on getting back into a daily yoga routine, working out, spending better time with Luna, and eating better. I legit hate cooking 90 percent of the time so it’s hard to not want to just be lazy and eat Oodles of Noodles for every meal, but there’s a light at the end of the tunnel.

The best way to sum up the state I’ve been in is being off-balance. Usually, this would be the beginning of a downward spiral for me, but I’ve done really well of staying positive and keeping myself focused on things that need to be done. Work has been rough, especially on my days when I don’t want to get out of bed. It’s been a lot more than a 9-5 some days after they had to lay some people off. As you can see in my How Do I Entrepreneur posts, I’ve still found time to keep pushing Justus Tickets forward.

Right now, my mantra is “just keep going.” It may not be pretty, but I’ve been doing just that. I hope if any of you are in this unbalanced place as well that you can find things to keep you grounded and moving forward. I always have an ear to listen if you need it.

Cheers to One Year

Happy anniversary, LA. To be honest, I didn’t think we’d make it this long when I first arrived. It’s raining just like it was the day I first drove into the city after days packed into my Jeep Renegade with all my stuff, my dog, and two other people. It’s been a crazy year of growth and coming to realizations that I would never have imagined on the horizon that day. I completed my graduate degree and I finished it strong, which I’m so proud of from having a history of slowing down before fully crossing the finish line.


I will never let go of the child inside me
Graduating meant a well-deserved vacation


I live somewhere different now and I’m getting ready to move again within the next couple of months. I still have my moments of questioning if I should move back east, but for now, every part of me wants to be here when I sit down and fully think of it. Michael moved in with me. I was able to visit home once and some many people came to visit me.

My aunt and I at Absinthe
Shout out to these two for bringing me furniture when I was living out of plastic tubs
My other half made it across the country to see me


These two deserve medals for moving me countless times and across countless miles


Moving here has made me so thankful for where I grew up, who I grew up, and who raised me. Once the majority of the Media Ventures kids headed back to wherever they call home, it hit me that I don’t have a big support group here. I have difficulty making friends when it’s short interactions like events or at bars. I’ve written about it before and it surely hasn’t changed. It has made me realize that I haven’t given up on any of the things I believe in to be better liked in LA. It’s a hard city to make friends in that are going to be there and that you fully click with if this lavish lifestyle isn’t something you are used to or have any desire to live. I want to start Justus Tickets because I want to see more diversity at shows and to see the fans that music was made for in the audience. It’s to get those fans that you see holding signs of how music saved their lives into that audience more often. It’s not about the money. Don’t get me wrong, it would be nice if it succeeds, but that isn’t what drives me for that or anything in life.


I’m so happy he moved here and I have someone to enjoy daily things with
We’ll always find time to get out of the city
Sometimes you drive an hour to the fair because it’s something that reminds you of your small town
I still notice the smallest things and take time to connect with things that make me feel like myself
My number one companion

I’m working on becoming more patient, which is harder and easier in this constantly moving city. There’s one side of it that is so urgent and so nonstop, but at the same time, California has such a sense of relaxation to it. People that are willing to slow down in order to take care of themselves so they are producing the best things they can. Being patient while still working towards your goals pays off and there is no better example than Mike recently being featured in a Vice article. He impresses me every day with his balance of his job that pays him and finding time for what he would rather be paid for. Life’s different than I ever would have imagined it and even with it being different, I can’t wait to see where I’ll be in another year. For now, I’m happy to call you home, LA.


It was my first Christmas not in Uniontown, but I spent it with my new family and was happier than I ever would have expected.



Looking forward responsibly

Happy 2018 to those that have reached it (we still have a couple hours of 2017 left here on the west coast.) The New Year is the perfect time to reflect back on the year and decide what you want to stay the same and what changes need to be made for the upcoming year. On Twitter lately, I’ve been seeing a lot of posts about what people tend to leave behind and some left me unsettled.

I understand wanting to make better changes, but one thing that can quickly ruin a new outlook on the year is setting really unrealistic goals. One of the biggest that I saw were people saying that they were “leaving” their depression, anxiety, and various other mental health issues in 2017. This idea has even been supported by some of my favorite mental health organizations and advocates. But here’s the thing, mental health illnesses aren’t those clothes you don’t wear or bad habits.

For me, it feels like a very destructive discourse to let people feel that these things can be left behind. You can be doing everything right like talking to a therapist regularly, taking your medicine, or keeping up with whatever self-care routine works for you and still have really bad days. Making it a resolution or saying that you were leaving those things behind can make it so much harder to get through your bad days because not only are you having a bad day, but you failed at keeping a resolution or goal for the entire year. I know when those type of things happen for me where I feel like I failed on something big like that, then it can lead me to spiral a little bit.

There’s nothing wrong with setting goals/making resolutions, but don’t let the chatter on social media or from those around you to set unrealistic goals. Mental illnesses don’t ever “go away” or are “left behind,” but they are manageable. Make your goals surrounding what you’re going to do to manage them, how you’ll deal with bad days, and forgive yourself if 2018 doesn’t go exactly as planned. I know 2017 didn’t go exactly as I planned, but all you can do is continue forward with a plan to do better, thank your past self for the experiences, and also forgive yourself for the not great stuff.

That’s what I’ll be keeping in mind while I set my goals and resolutions for 2018. Feel free to share yours, share your stories, or let me know how you plan on forgiving your past self in order to move forward.

Happy New Year! I’m glad we all made it another year.

Sticking with a hobby

Recently, my boyfriend suggested to me that I need to find a hobby that I can dedicate myself too. I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately and why I don’t really have one that I’m deeply passionate about despite being involved in a lot of different things. It really comes down to two things one that isn’t a problem, but that has helped me on my path in life and the other which is definitely a problem that I need to work.

The first being that I’ve always had such an interest in learning new things and discovering new information. This is what lead me to choose my graduate program and what brought me to where I am now. It keeps me going and always striving to improve myself in some way, but sometimes it means I dive into things that I don’t always finish.

That brings me to the second aspect of what keeps me from really excelling at dedicating myself to any of my hobbies. I struggle with sticking with things through when I feel inadequate at them. When photography was one of my main focuses it would be extremely frustrating that I did not edit well so if I didn’t get it right in camera, then that’s where it ended for me. It has kept me from sticking with a lot of things and it’s the biggest thing I want to work on personally right now.

I plan on finding a guitar I can start practicing again. I played when I was younger but didn’t stick with it. I love music and people are always surprised with how passionate I am about it that I don’t play any instruments. It’s somewhere start. I’m not looking to be perfect, but to be able to get past my issues with giving things up before I can grow with them.

I know it won’t just give me a great hobby, but help me elsewhere in my life as well. If you know any sites, videos, etc. for learning guitar, then send them my way!

Writing When Writing Doesn’t Make Sense

I hope that even if one day I’m really successful that no one feels the need to write a biography about me. They would probably have to find 8 million things to figure out where I was deciding to write things down at a certain time. I write when I’m stressed and I write when good things happen. Sometimes it feels right to have in it this public of a space and sometimes it doesn’t. Lately, it’s been in my journal or in my Passion Planner that I’ve mentioned before.

Since the last time I wrote anything on here, I moved, started and finished a new internship with Bkstg, finished my graduate program, started working on launching my thesis project as a business, and my boyfriend moved in. Those are a lot of big updates that I didn’t share and instead just wrote down in my journal or elsewhere.

It isn’t because I didn’t want to share them, but instead, wasn’t sure how. “Write for your blog” has been on my to-do list for about a month now and I’d accomplish everything else and be left staring at those four words. I didn’t know how and couldn’t understand why.

Writing for me has always been a cathartic process for better or worse, but recently I’ve been handling relationships and self-care better. I didn’t feel the need to write to people I didn’t know. It scared me when I started feeling like I needed to write again. The first thought was that I was falling back into a depressive state. I knew that I ignored it last time from re-reading my journal and didn’t want to this time. I focused on reaching out to

I focused on reaching out to friends and family because after 24 years here I finally realized that the people that love me want to know what’s going on in my life whether it’s good or bad. I knew I wasn’t letting myself fall back to where I was but still felt a desire to write.

About what though? That’s where I am now. I have no idea how or what I want to write about moving forward. It is this weird state of confliction that I feel about the majority of things in my life right now.

I don’t know what I am going to write or what this blog will look like in three months, but I am determined to write if my brain says write. I hope you enjoy whatever comes next.