It’s no secret that I struggle with a brain that doesn’t always want to get up and go as much as I need to. I’ve struggled with depression and anxiety for a long time and I’ve written about it here, here, and even here. You can find hints of it all over really, especially really bad long periods when I don’t write anything, but you get the point. It’s a part of who I am and it’s not going to magically get up and walk away any time soon.
It hasn’t stopped me from pursuing my dream of being a founder and CEO in any way. Despite the fact, that it doesn’t take long once you start learning about entrepreneurship to hit:
🚨 BE PREPARED TO BE ALONE! 🚨
🚨 THE SOFT HEARTED NEED NOT APPLY! 🚨
The list could go on and on, but it was one of the biggest hurdles I faced when making the decision to pursue launching Justus Tickets. Would I be able to deal with trying to take this idea that meant the world to me and that I have put so much work into out into the world? It definitely hasn’t been a perfect journey and some days I feel like I’m no closer to launching than I was when I incorporated, but when I actually sit down and look back I’ve come a long way. During my time at Zero Base One, being a founder was summed up to the fact that a lot of the time you’ll feel like you’re staring into the abyss chewing glass and that couldn’t be truer. The key is when you feel like that is to take a breath and look back.
It’s so easy to get wrapped up in the idea of what you want your company or any venture to be far down the road when you’ll be able to buy a house, travel wherever, and run an amazing team. You can get some serious tunnel vision and the light at the end of the tunnel can quickly move far away and leave you feeling desperate. That’s when you look back and see all the work that you’ve put in. All the ways you’ve pushed yourself. The days you got up and still built financial models or empathy maps even though you could’ve slept all day.
There’s no easy journey for these things and adding something like a mental illness makes it a feel a lot more like a roller coaster you can’t get off. There are people doing it every day and you can do it too. Ask yourself what would hurt more, the roller coaster or sitting on the sidelines watching other people ride? If you picked the roller coaster, then don’t worry because as with any good one there are ways to build safety into this wild ride. Find a therapist, find a partner that understands how to bring you out of your dark days, and the list goes on and on. The best part about running your own company is that you get to call the shots so you can make things work for you. I listened to a podcast on the topic and the founder spoke about he usually works remotely and that has made things exponentially better. Would that work for me? Absolutely not, but there’s no magic blueprint for success.
Thank goodness because if one did exist, it probably wouldn’t have anyone that looks or thinks like me running a company in the ticketing industry. Believe in yourself, build your safety features, and get on the roller coaster. Those of us that understand how big that step was will be here to welcome you with open arms. A brain that doesn’t always run great can create amazing, beautiful things and I can’t wait to see what yours gives to this world.